I am impatient

I have something shameful to confess: I am impatient.. I am awful when I have to wait in lineups at the bank, or if I am inconvenienced say by water shutoffs related to roadwork or being in a car line up waiting to be flagged through.

A young guy came to the door yesterday who is working with a road crew down the street. He was handing out notices of water shutoffs and when I opened the door he looked startled. Why? Well the other day when his crew hit a gas line and had to detour those of us who were on foot and driving around it (for our own safety I might add)  I was half a block from home and had to turn around and walk a longer route. I told him "You guys suck!!".  Sheesh!! What a bag eh? I wanted to tell him "It's okay kiddo, I don't really bite"

Shameful to make someone else feel bad because I cannot get a grip on my sinful nature. I just read that one of the penalties of sin is our acceptance of it. It establishes itself and takes a toll on you and anyone around you. How can I expect to be of service to anyone when I'm governed by sin?

The good news is that God forgives. I can go to him after another 'little flare up' and asked to be forgiven. The thing is though, if I don't change my behavior then the sin remains. Nothing changes if nothing changes.

So today, after snarking at the person answering the phone in the public works office regarding a 2 hour power outage I called back and apologized. She was gracious and friendly and I am grateful that she was.

Wouldn't it be horrible to walk around in your life with people startled by you all the time?  I hope I never accept sin. I hope my conscience drives me nuts and that God leans on me to change as much as is needed because I do want to be told in heaven "Well done good and faithful servant", and there is no room for sin in that statement.